Hiding My Real Self #2

She was sitting alone in the cafe

And I was looking at her

Probably even staring

But I couldn't help myself 

Her eyes were so beautiful,

gorgeous ...

But I felt they were kind of dark, 

Like they are hiding something

...

The energy between two of us

Was odd

She attracted me in weird way

I had to came closer to her and ask her 

'What is bringing you here?'

She didn't answer for a while

She just looked at me

After few minutes

Her eyes started shining

In color I can't describe

So beautiful

But so sad

And she said

'You' .

In that second

I swear

I knew we were somehow connected

...

Hiding My Real Self

There are the days

When I feel like the beast inside me

Will defeat me 

And I'll just become void

It scares me

How there are multiple persons or even creatures

In one person

Maybe I should just stop thinking about it 

But every time I see you

I wonder

If you feel the same

Are there the voices in your head

Making you evil and bad and...

I can't stop thinking

I think too much 

Maybe I should let it all go

Let the werewolf inside me

Speak and do instead of me

Cause

There are the things I wanna do 

But can't

Because people will judge

Always and forever

And I'm learned I should hide my real self 

But I wonder 

Until when ?

AU Explanation : Stiles lives normal life but he's a werewolf. 

He hides his nature because he thinks people will judge and think of him as a beast but then he sees Malia and he asks himself does she feel the same, maybe she could also be werewolf.

Stay alive,xx

Slay Werecoyote Slay

Hello my dear wolfiers! 

How are you doing? Hope you're okay.

It's that time of the year when summer is getting to the end and you are probably getting back to school or work so before I start this post, I wish you the best year of your lives, a lot of success, happiness and love! 

In this post, I've chosen some of the most beautiful Shelley Hennig's a.k.a Malia's photos from this year and I wanted to share them with you.

Hope you'll like them!

How pretty is she? 

I think she's so underrated actor and she should get more opportunities.

I just love her style and everything about her because she's such an inspiration!

So that was all for this post! Hope you enjoyed!

And...

Thank you so much for amazing 30k views! That's unbelievable! I'm so happy now, I can't even describe it to you!

I love you guys so much and I just can't thank you enough for this amazing support you gave me every single time I write a post. You are always there for me and I want you to know I'm always there for you, too. 

I started this blog as a hobby and I can't believe you loved it enough to read my posts, comment them and follow me.

I'm so grateful for every single one of you!

Thank you for everything!
Love ya!

Stay alive,xx

1 YEAR OF STALIA IS BAE!

Hello there!

If you are reading this, it means you are special to me. It means I'm your friend although you don't even know me. It means I love you and I'm thankful to you with all of my heart.

Thank you so much for this wonderful year behind us, for always being there for me with your kind comments and I can't even believe so many people read my posts, the words I write with intention to feel better because writing really does that - it makes you feel better. But if someone actually reads your articles and poems and find them interesting - that's really something , something big for me! 

I could cry now... I can't even believe it's been a whole year since I made this blog and my first post which was totally awkward (check it out here so we can laugh at myself together).

I've never worried about views or comments on this blog like I'd beg someone to see my new post and comment on it. I've always wanted to have real readers who love what I do and who are there only because of that. I might have not much views on my blog since it's been a whole year of me starting it but I don't care because I'm hear just to write because I love writing and I have no hidden intentions with this blog, I'm not planning to make money from it or something like that. I'm here because I just love it, I'm here because of you guys, because I love you! I can't even describe you how wonderful it feels when I read like a long comment on my post saying that I'm good in what I'm doing, that I should keep going etc. It makes me really proud and thankful to you guys. I really appreciate every single letter you comment on my posts. I know I could have a lot more views or followers because I've had a lot of breaks through this blogging journey. We all need breaks sometimes, don't we? This blog is like a place I'm relaxing at. It's not like I must post something today, it's more like I feel like writing today, so why don't I publish a post. This blog is different than the another one I'm writing - Living Like V because lifestyle and fashion blogs are more popular in general, they have a bigger audience than the ones like Stalia is BAE. The audience at blogs like this one is smaller because there are not a lot of people who love Teen Wolf, Stalia and reading blogs at the same time. For people like me, that doesn't mean anything, I'll write on this blog until I've got like 1 view per post because that one person who is reading it is worth it. 

I just wanted you to know that...

Thank you so much for everything! I love you guys to the moon and back and I'll never ever forget you and this blog. Even if I stop writing on it for like 10 years or more, I'll never forget you and this will be one of the most beautiful memories to me from my teenage years. I really need to stop now because I'll start crying...

Oh so, I guess that was all I wanted to say... I love you so, so , so much and you all mean the world to me! Thank you for everything and don't forget to...

Stay alive,xx

Malia Green Eyes

I love to imagine I was Malia but why not to imagine Malia was me? So I TRIED to make her eyes green like mine in this edit and I know I'm not good at it yet but I'm still learning.

Malia would look stunning with green eyes although her brown as a human and blue as a werewolf / werecoyote are wonderful,too!

She's such a queen, isn't she?

Oh I love her!!!

Stay alive,xx

What about us?

 You know what hurts the most? - I asked the total stranger sitting on a bench right next to me.

He looked at me like I'm crazy. Maybe I am but after everything, how could I be normal?

What? - He asked still looking at me.

Seeing somebody you love slowly moving away from you. Like I was nothing to him! That hurts...

Especially knowing it's all my fault. I can't watch fake people around people I love and every time, every single time, I decide that something is wrong with me, not them and I just... I start pushing people away from me. Because I... I know I cannot change them, I cannot change the way they see things or people. I can't choose their friends and that kills me.

Sounds selfish, I know but I... I want somebody to choose me over anyone else. I want to be someones first choice, the person they think about when they read all these cute quotes about love. 

And I know I'll never find that person because the last one I trusted that way... He betrayed me. And... And there's absolutely no one who could fix me, put my broken pieces together. I cannot live without him, although he is not mine now... Ohh, who am I kidding? He'll always be mine. Even when he doesn't want to, when he wants to forget me, delete me completely from his life... I'll always be there. Watching for him and making sure he's okay, you know. It's always dangerous out there and I just wanna make sure he's safe. Oh my God, why didn't he stop me from saying goodbye ?! Why didn't he chose me over her?! Why?! What have I done, I've never hurt anybody and I was always caring about people, about their feelings... But now, when I'm shattered into pieces, nobody is there for me. 

I'm a bad person, ain't I?

Malia, this one is for you. I love you!

Stay alive,xx

Drug

These black walls around me are getting so big,

I feel I'm disappearing in them...

You are my drug 

And now when you are gone

I'm left alone with my addiction

Without cure

How can I get myself together

When you've shattered me in the pieces

With just few words

'I can't... I'm leaving' ,

You said but baby you forgot one thing...

You didn't ask me would I be able to live 

Without you

Without my drug

'Cause when you get addicted to someone

Their departure kills you inside

But you need to hide it.

Love you too much to let you go,

But too proud to stop you from leaving.

How can I live this live without you 

When you are everything 

That still keeps me alive

?

- me 

Why Am I Void?!

...

I've done so many things wrong but why is God punishing me like this?! Why is He taking you from me, when I can't live without you?! Am I that bad person?

' I don't want to hurt you, maybe it's better to... Please go, I can't say it...'

' Baby, what's wrong?'

' Don't... Just don't... I... I want you to leave! We are done! '

And you left. Deep down, I wanted you to stay but baby, you don't realize that I am the one who's hurting you! It's all my false! I should've protect you from everything but I can't... I'm not that strong...

The monsters will chase you when you are with me and I want you to go. I want you to be happy somewhere else, with somebody else, without me... 

I'm the cause of your pain, I'm the one who should feel it, I deserve it because I've done so many bad things in my life. But you...

You are the one who's face is more innocent than anything on this planet.

You are the one who makes people shame about their behavior not saying anything, just looking at them...

Your eyes are bright and shinny when you are with me and I don't want to shut the shine down but I can't help it... I can't protect you from evil that's chasing me.

How can it even come close to you when you are so good and nice?

What's wrong with me?! Why am I void?!

I can't help myself... It's better for you to leave me and everything will be okay. 

Your life will be normal again.

Like before you met me.

But I don't think you regret it... 

I'm hoping you don't regret a second spent with me,baby...

Promise me you'll remember me and go.

It's better to leave evil than to become one.

...

Imagine : Wedding Day

It's the half of the most beautiful month, called March.

In March, everything's pretty, every flower let us enjoy its beauty creating the colorful picture of this beautiful planet Earth.

My thoughts and worries are bigger than the Earth on this day.

It's our wedding day...

Lydia and I are wearing long beautiful white dresses, the same ones because now, when we are best friends, we love to wear the same clothes so we decided to wear the same wedding dresses.

Parrish has never been prettier than today. But you know that my eyes are not focusing on Parrish but him... My biggest love, the only truth on this world... My Stiles.

Realizing that now, for a few minutes, I'll be standing there with him, looking him in his beautiful eyes, but this time like his wife.

My surname will be Stilinski. Oh God!

Malia Stilinski. 

How that does sound to you?

I have never been happier in my entire lifetime.

After all these years, he can make the butterflies in my stomach going crazy by just one look, just one smile...

Lydia is happy now, too. I'm grateful for everything that I've got.

I've got my best friend here by my side, we are doing our double wedding that we were always dreaming about. Our wedding dresses are beautiful but they wouldn't be this beautiful without this brooch. It's brooch with initials of a true hero that I wish I knew better... A.A. - Allison Argent.

I wish she was there with us, on our day because I see how much Lydia misses her. 

Her eyes are showing that she's trying to find someone in the crowd knowing that it's not possible, but she's still looking...

Trying to break this jitters, I'm looking who's out there...

Scott and Kira are there! Kira looks so beautiful! Scott is trying to reassure Stiles but the little Allison is interrupting him by playing with his trousers. 

...

Hello my dear wolfiers!
I hope you enjoyed this post! Who agrees with me that this should happen?
Let me see your hands in the air hahaha!

Welll...Hope you like it! If you do be sure to let me know in the comments down below and please follow me on GFC and G+. Thank you!

 Stay alive,xx

''They Underestimated My Power''

...

When the Sun goes down and the Moon is full, I just want you to be by my side and hold me tight so the Moon loses its power and my claws don't appear wanting to unstitch all the skin on this little Earth, just to see weakness in their eyes.. 

It's not actually claws or fangs that make us different from others, baby. 

It's the desire in our hearts to kill everything that doesn't deserve to live. 

To see them suffer in pain like others suffered while they were hurting them so bad.

We want it.

We, werewolves, just want to make this planet better to live. 

Humans... Humans are bad,bad,bad... 

They are jealous, envious, corrupt beings. They are fake.

They'd tell you they love you but inside, they just want you to be dead.

And that's what makes me werewolf. Because werewolves are beings that want justice, that are sick of seeing other innocent people suffer.

They say... ''You become a werewolf when one of them bites us'' but honey... 

How did the first one originate? 

Shh just listen me... I'll tell you the story how they underestimated her power.

There was a girl. They didn't know her name because they called her a failure.

She saw what other people didn't. 

She noticed what they didn't. 

She was a witness of so much injustice in her life, she was witness of many crimes happening in front of her eyes, in her town... 

She knew it wasn't alright. She wanted to change the world.

But she couldn't. At least she thought like that.

One night... She dreamed it. She dreamed her becoming a werewolf. Werewolf who hunts bad things and saves lives. 

But she kept quiet. She held it in her for a long,long time. But one night... The Moon raised and she felt it. She was turning into a werewolf throwing out every atom of anger she felt. 

Her claws, fangs and speed were incredible. But she knew she needed an army. An army of soldiers to help her to change the world. They underestimated her power but once they saw she was something special... They changed their mind but she didn't. 

- And that's just how it all has started... 

...

Hello guys! 

Happy Wednesday to you! Haha first thing first, one announcement : my publishing schedule changed a little bit and now I'm posting EVERY WEDNESDAY AND SATURDAY! 

I hope that's fine to you.

And now, let's talk about this fanfiction text I just wrote. I wrote it and it's not like the true legend about werewolves! Just to make that clear. I wrote it like Malia was the first werewolf ever because... I don't know, I just had that kind of inspiration, I guess? 

So thanks for reading, please comment down bellow telling me do you like this kind of posts and what should I post next? :) 

I love you all guys, 

Stay alive,xx 

Maybe You'll Love Me Like Before

...

After you suddenly left, there was nothing left in my heart... It became a desert which was once a town. The buildings were smashed down into the dust. All of the buildings in my heart were called by your name. But it's so rare, actually...

How can the person who meant world to you become a stranger? 

A total stranger... 

It, actually, scares me sometimes...

After you I became a cold person... I raised my walls keeping everybody behind them. Just to be sure no one will come into my heart. 'Cause when I let them do it, they leave.

Building all new buildings in my heart just by myself made me realize that I need you but I don't want you to know it...

I need you more than anyone or anything.

I realized that your message, your smile or just one look at me would make me feel alive again.

It's so sad that all of your feelings and emotions are trapped into that one person who keeps leaving you alone.

My eyes get yellow. My teeth gets bigger and my nails turn into claws. 

But I can't fight the werewolves in me who keep leading me to you.

Maybe I just need to let them bring me back to you...

Maybe you'll hug me like before...

Maybe you'll look at me like before...

Maybe your heart will beat like before...

And maybe, just maybe... 

You'll love me like before...

...

Hello guys!!! So before I say anything... Sorry! Sorry for writting sad posts over and over again haha! I don't really know why I do it but anyways...

I promise my next few posts will be the happy ones haha! 

So, as you probably know... New trailer for Teen Wolf season  5b is out and I need you to let me know if you want me to do a post, kinda review or ''Teen Wolf Season 5b Trailer Got Me Like...'' post, please let me know in the comments down bellow!

And oh, I've watched The Hunger Games and I remembered one of my lovely readers once asked me why I always write ''Stay alive,xx'' at the end of my posts, am I fan of The Hunger Games and I told her/him that I didn't even watched The Hunger Games yet so I'm answering you now : YES, I AM! I'M A HUGE FAN OF THE HUNGER GAMES! OmG I don't know which movie do I like better : Divergent, The Hunger Games or The Maze Runner haha. I wish Shelley and Dylan are characters in every movie ohh...

Guys, we are so close to 9000 VIEWS which is AMAZING! I love you so much and I hope you'll always be my dear readers and I want you to know that I'm always there for you no matter what, if you need me, just tell me in the comments and I will contact you and listen you, help you, anything for you! 

Let's do it to 9000 VIEWS!

This was long! If you all way down here, you are my cupcake haha! 

Comment down bellow and follow me on GFC! Thank you!

I love you,

Stay alive,xx

Waiting For You

Hello guys! It's been so long I talked to you! I had so much to do, I'm going crazy in school so I couldn't find any extra time to talk to you. And I'm so sorry about that! Hope I'll finally make my schedule works so I can find some time to enjoy here writting new posts. 

I hope you like my posts, if you don't, please tell me what should I change about them and what kind of posts would you like to see here. 

''Blue jeans, white shirt walk into the room, you know you made my eyes burn...''

I love you, bad boy. 

I love how your eyes are saying things you did. Oh those eyes make me melt every time they look at me but I'm acting so cool hoping you can't see that I want you.

I want you by my side now and forever.

I'm trying to act cool making you try harder to get me. 

It's hard, you know?

Because I only want to hug you and never let you go again.

I know you well. I know you are showing your cold side on the outside making everyone freeze when you walk in but, inside... You are just a boy wanting someone to love him forever. Someone who will give him promises and don't break them. Someone who will give him all her heart 'cause you just wanna feel loved... You just wanna feel like when you die, someone would actually cry because of you. Like someone would care for all your wounds and make them disappear. It's truth, isn't it?

And the only thing I can promise to you is that I will love you forever.

'Cause I'm the person that gives everything or nothing.

I'll love you with all my heart or I'll hate you. It's simple.

When you get to know me better you'll realize I'm not perfect, but I'm not even trying to be. I just want someone who would treat me like I am and I'll give him all my world. I'll never let him go.

Is that enough to you?

If it is, come! I'm waiting for you..
.

Again I'm so sorry about my inactivity but I'll try harder to organize my time because I just love you all and I love writting here, talking to you...
I hope you liked this post, if you did, please don't forget to subscribe on my blog and leave me comments down bellow so we can chat a little bit.

I love you all,
Stay alive, xx

MALIA'S POWER!

Hello guys,
I was just thinking something and decided to write a post about 4 times Malia was totally ruling the world with her power (werewolf's power) !
Her power is just... #GOALS!

So let's get into this ----->

1. FIGHTING A DREAD DOCTOR!
This scene was amazing! Scott was fighting a Dread Doctor but Dread Doctor punched him hard and then Malia came... 
Let me just show you this...

At the end she, thanks God, escaped. We all know that one werewolf can't beat Dread Doctor but Malia did pretty well and she saved Scott with Melissa's help.

I could say this was one of my favorite #MaliaAsWerewolf scenes.

2.SHE EASILY BEATED THE GUYS IN THE CLUB!

Remember when they were in the club, Malia and Kira were dancing to don't get discovered but they did, so they needed to beat bodyguards to escape. 

Aww cute! #WerewolfGirlsPower !

3.FEEL SOMEONE IS COMING!

Malia was with Stiles in the front of the school. She felt someone is coming, someone who's really fast. And yeah... She did this...

Poor Liam! And Stiles' there like wtf?! Haha. So cute to me. I know, I'm weird...

4.SHE LEARNED HOW TO CONTROL FAST!

Werewolf, acutually, needs a lot of time and patience to learn how to control but Malia did it pretty fast ,which is really amazing and stunning! Yeah, she was couple of times tied with chains like other werewolves trying to learn how to control but she did it very well, and she didn't even killed anyone learning this (this was joke haha). She is literally GOALS! How many times did I said this?!

''If I concentrate I can be pretty strong'' 

''Shoot me down, but I won't fall...'''

That was it for today,

Hope you enjoyed,

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