Hiding My Real Self #2

She was sitting alone in the cafe

And I was looking at her

Probably even staring

But I couldn't help myself 

Her eyes were so beautiful,

gorgeous ...

But I felt they were kind of dark, 

Like they are hiding something

...

The energy between two of us

Was odd

She attracted me in weird way

I had to came closer to her and ask her 

'What is bringing you here?'

She didn't answer for a while

She just looked at me

After few minutes

Her eyes started shining

In color I can't describe

So beautiful

But so sad

And she said

'You' .

In that second

I swear

I knew we were somehow connected

...

Hiding My Real Self

There are the days

When I feel like the beast inside me

Will defeat me 

And I'll just become void

It scares me

How there are multiple persons or even creatures

In one person

Maybe I should just stop thinking about it 

But every time I see you

I wonder

If you feel the same

Are there the voices in your head

Making you evil and bad and...

I can't stop thinking

I think too much 

Maybe I should let it all go

Let the werewolf inside me

Speak and do instead of me

Cause

There are the things I wanna do 

But can't

Because people will judge

Always and forever

And I'm learned I should hide my real self 

But I wonder 

Until when ?

AU Explanation : Stiles lives normal life but he's a werewolf. 

He hides his nature because he thinks people will judge and think of him as a beast but then he sees Malia and he asks himself does she feel the same, maybe she could also be werewolf.

Stay alive,xx

August 26th 1991

August 26th 1991 is the day Dylan O'brien was born.

Dylan O'brien or Stiles, I'd say, is really warm, beautiful and lovely actor who always brings smiles to our faces.

He's so special and I really want to meet him.

I'm so glad I was born in the time he lives in and I have a chance to meet such an amazing person, although that chance is smaller than anything, I still hope my dream of meeting him will, one day, come true.

What's so special about him?

I'd say he's not like the other actors. Why? He's not really obsessed with fame or popularity according to the fact he barely uses any social network.

He is the person who's smile will make thousands of people laugh.

There's something special about some people. We don't even know the reason why but we love them...

I'd call it unexplainable love but really wonderful one.

Thank you for everything, the cutest actor ever!

I love you very much and wish you the happiest birthday ever!

1 YEAR OF STALIA IS BAE!

Hello there!

If you are reading this, it means you are special to me. It means I'm your friend although you don't even know me. It means I love you and I'm thankful to you with all of my heart.

Thank you so much for this wonderful year behind us, for always being there for me with your kind comments and I can't even believe so many people read my posts, the words I write with intention to feel better because writing really does that - it makes you feel better. But if someone actually reads your articles and poems and find them interesting - that's really something , something big for me! 

I could cry now... I can't even believe it's been a whole year since I made this blog and my first post which was totally awkward (check it out here so we can laugh at myself together).

I've never worried about views or comments on this blog like I'd beg someone to see my new post and comment on it. I've always wanted to have real readers who love what I do and who are there only because of that. I might have not much views on my blog since it's been a whole year of me starting it but I don't care because I'm hear just to write because I love writing and I have no hidden intentions with this blog, I'm not planning to make money from it or something like that. I'm here because I just love it, I'm here because of you guys, because I love you! I can't even describe you how wonderful it feels when I read like a long comment on my post saying that I'm good in what I'm doing, that I should keep going etc. It makes me really proud and thankful to you guys. I really appreciate every single letter you comment on my posts. I know I could have a lot more views or followers because I've had a lot of breaks through this blogging journey. We all need breaks sometimes, don't we? This blog is like a place I'm relaxing at. It's not like I must post something today, it's more like I feel like writing today, so why don't I publish a post. This blog is different than the another one I'm writing - Living Like V because lifestyle and fashion blogs are more popular in general, they have a bigger audience than the ones like Stalia is BAE. The audience at blogs like this one is smaller because there are not a lot of people who love Teen Wolf, Stalia and reading blogs at the same time. For people like me, that doesn't mean anything, I'll write on this blog until I've got like 1 view per post because that one person who is reading it is worth it. 

I just wanted you to know that...

Thank you so much for everything! I love you guys to the moon and back and I'll never ever forget you and this blog. Even if I stop writing on it for like 10 years or more, I'll never forget you and this will be one of the most beautiful memories to me from my teenage years. I really need to stop now because I'll start crying...

Oh so, I guess that was all I wanted to say... I love you so, so , so much and you all mean the world to me! Thank you for everything and don't forget to...

Stay alive,xx

Noah Foster - Stiles Stilinski Too Much ?

Hello my dear wolfiers!

I wanted to publish this post earlier because I started watching Scream TV show 4-5 days ago and I've watched every episode in 3 days. Now, I'm waiting for the new ones to come out, as well as the next episodes of Teen Wolf.

Getting to know Scream characters, I noticed that Noah Foster has a lot common with Stiles.

I mean, they both are somehow special part of the group. 

They are always investigating something and finding the most important news, details and tips to help them and their friends to survive.

Stiles had created like a 'crimes board' , if I can call it like that, which helped him solve a lot of mysteries, to discover who is the bad guy or guys etc. They are both really smart, intelligent and always have the most interesting details and stories to tell. They may look a little bit awkward to their friends while they do it because why would teenagers like them know that much about serial killers (Noah) or supernatural creatures (Stiles). 

And ohh, listen to this one, it's really interesting : when they are being hunted by bad guys or they go to catch them, they bring similar 'weapons'. Noah always finds some kind of tube or board and we all know what Stiles uses - his famous bat.

Guess what? Noah has the similar one.  

I don't know if this is valid connection between the two of them, but I fell in love with both of them so that should mean they are really alike. Or not? Haha never mind.

I feel like MTV has discovered the secret of Teen Wolf show popularity : it's all about Stiles guys! 

So they decided to create a similar character in Scream so the show would get really popular, too.

I mean, what would Teen Wolf be without Stiles?

Or Scream without Noah?

Buuum, that's all! I've discovered you a BIG SECRET! Sarcastic a little bit, don't mind please.

If you watch the both of these shows, please tell me down bellow if you had noticed the same thing I did. Thank you very much for reading! Hope you enjoyed!

Stay alive,xx

NO DYLAN O'BRIEN AND ARDEN CHO IN SEASON 6?

Ohh my God guys I'm so nervous since I read this : 

“Teen Wolf” Season 6 is expected to introduce new characters with the alleged absence of Dylan O’Brien (Stiles Stilinski) and Arden Cho (Kira Yukimura). Following his recent accident on the set of “The Maze Runner: The Death Cure,” multiple reports suggest that the actor will not be coming back in the hit MTV series. Cho, on the other hand, confirmed that she would also not be reprising her role when the show premieres in June.

 Early on in the production of season 6 of Teen Wolf, Dylan O’Brien suffered serious on set injuries and the accident resulted in O’Brien being hospitalized for an undetermined period of time. Initially, producers of Teen Wolf had planned to wait for Dylan to recover before moving forward, but, realizing that the extent of O’Brien’s injuries might limit his availability to return to work, back up plans were set in place. As time went on and O’Brien still struggled to recover from his injuries, rumors began to circulate that One Direction’s Harry Styles would replace O’Brien as Stiles Stilinski. Those rumors proved to be false and it was later revealed that Styles would not be joining the cast of Teen Wolf at all. While nothing has been officially confirmed by Teen Wolf producers, it seems highly unlikely that O’Brien, still recovering from his injuries, will heal in time to make a return in season 6 and there’s still talk of recasting the Stiles role. One cast member hinted that Teen Wolf fans shouldn’t expect to see too many familiar faces in the sixth installment of the show and it seems she might be referring, at least in part, to Dylan’s departure. 

What the hell is happening?! I hope this is not the truth and I... I just CANNOT imagine Teen Wolf without him! It's like watching football game without football players, all the left is the ball and the field but who would kick the damn ball?! I'm so nervous and I could even start crying because, without Dylan, this show is just not going to be the same...
I really hope this is not the truth... What do you think guys? Please comment down bellow so we can talk about this a little bit because I literally have no one to talk about Teen Wolf with right now and I really need it because this show has became my whole life, especially since I made this blog and met all of you amazing people...

Update : I recently found Arden Cho won't be back to season 6 and this information is 100% true because of her vlog where she said goodbye to Teen Wolf. Umhh this is so sad to me...
I love Kira so much and now you are telling me she won't be back?! What is wrong with you Jeff and all the people out there who are responsible for this?! Just imagine how stupid the whole show will get when Kira won't be there. First, Allison dies, Scott is left with broken heart. Then we have a little cute girl named Kira who succeed in making him happy again and I'm just asking you... What the hell you think you are doing? Don't you have feelings man? I'm expecting nothing less from Scott than being 100% broken now without anyone else who could fix him again. Or maybe you'll bring up a new girl again? No, I don't even wanna think about your silly decisions because this all looks unrealistic now. The life of the teens in Teen Wolf was pretty relatable to every teenager, I'm talking about the one at the day, when they are not supernatural creatures but just teens who fall in love, fight with their parents, do silly stuff, get their heart broken etc. I don't know... I was so excited about the upcoming season before but now... I don't even know how I am feeling...

Stay alive,xx

Drug

These black walls around me are getting so big,

I feel I'm disappearing in them...

You are my drug 

And now when you are gone

I'm left alone with my addiction

Without cure

How can I get myself together

When you've shattered me in the pieces

With just few words

'I can't... I'm leaving' ,

You said but baby you forgot one thing...

You didn't ask me would I be able to live 

Without you

Without my drug

'Cause when you get addicted to someone

Their departure kills you inside

But you need to hide it.

Love you too much to let you go,

But too proud to stop you from leaving.

How can I live this live without you 

When you are everything 

That still keeps me alive

?

- me 

20 Reasons To Ship Stalia

Hello, my dear wolfiers and welcome to another post!
This time, I'm showing you 44 reasons to ship our favorite couple ever!

Let's get into this...

I ship Stalia because :
1. They love each other.
2. They care about each other.
3. They have saved each others lifes couple of times.
4. They are different but yet so similar.
5. They are beautiful together.
6. They think in the same way.
7. They complete each other.
8. They are strong together.
9. Thay can beat any enemy together.
10. They can't live without each other.
11. They are the most interesting couple in Teen Wolf.
12. The way they look at each other.
13. The way they support each other.
14. The way they hold hands.
15. The way they show their love to each other.
16. They controle each other.
17. They are lovely couple.
18. They love each other more than themselves.
19. Stiles is Malia's first love.
20. Malia is Stiles' first relatioship.

Stay alive,xx

Imagine : Wedding Day

It's the half of the most beautiful month, called March.

In March, everything's pretty, every flower let us enjoy its beauty creating the colorful picture of this beautiful planet Earth.

My thoughts and worries are bigger than the Earth on this day.

It's our wedding day...

Lydia and I are wearing long beautiful white dresses, the same ones because now, when we are best friends, we love to wear the same clothes so we decided to wear the same wedding dresses.

Parrish has never been prettier than today. But you know that my eyes are not focusing on Parrish but him... My biggest love, the only truth on this world... My Stiles.

Realizing that now, for a few minutes, I'll be standing there with him, looking him in his beautiful eyes, but this time like his wife.

My surname will be Stilinski. Oh God!

Malia Stilinski. 

How that does sound to you?

I have never been happier in my entire lifetime.

After all these years, he can make the butterflies in my stomach going crazy by just one look, just one smile...

Lydia is happy now, too. I'm grateful for everything that I've got.

I've got my best friend here by my side, we are doing our double wedding that we were always dreaming about. Our wedding dresses are beautiful but they wouldn't be this beautiful without this brooch. It's brooch with initials of a true hero that I wish I knew better... A.A. - Allison Argent.

I wish she was there with us, on our day because I see how much Lydia misses her. 

Her eyes are showing that she's trying to find someone in the crowd knowing that it's not possible, but she's still looking...

Trying to break this jitters, I'm looking who's out there...

Scott and Kira are there! Kira looks so beautiful! Scott is trying to reassure Stiles but the little Allison is interrupting him by playing with his trousers. 

...

Hello my dear wolfiers!
I hope you enjoyed this post! Who agrees with me that this should happen?
Let me see your hands in the air hahaha!

Welll...Hope you like it! If you do be sure to let me know in the comments down below and please follow me on GFC and G+. Thank you!

 Stay alive,xx

''They Underestimated My Power''

...

When the Sun goes down and the Moon is full, I just want you to be by my side and hold me tight so the Moon loses its power and my claws don't appear wanting to unstitch all the skin on this little Earth, just to see weakness in their eyes.. 

It's not actually claws or fangs that make us different from others, baby. 

It's the desire in our hearts to kill everything that doesn't deserve to live. 

To see them suffer in pain like others suffered while they were hurting them so bad.

We want it.

We, werewolves, just want to make this planet better to live. 

Humans... Humans are bad,bad,bad... 

They are jealous, envious, corrupt beings. They are fake.

They'd tell you they love you but inside, they just want you to be dead.

And that's what makes me werewolf. Because werewolves are beings that want justice, that are sick of seeing other innocent people suffer.

They say... ''You become a werewolf when one of them bites us'' but honey... 

How did the first one originate? 

Shh just listen me... I'll tell you the story how they underestimated her power.

There was a girl. They didn't know her name because they called her a failure.

She saw what other people didn't. 

She noticed what they didn't. 

She was a witness of so much injustice in her life, she was witness of many crimes happening in front of her eyes, in her town... 

She knew it wasn't alright. She wanted to change the world.

But she couldn't. At least she thought like that.

One night... She dreamed it. She dreamed her becoming a werewolf. Werewolf who hunts bad things and saves lives. 

But she kept quiet. She held it in her for a long,long time. But one night... The Moon raised and she felt it. She was turning into a werewolf throwing out every atom of anger she felt. 

Her claws, fangs and speed were incredible. But she knew she needed an army. An army of soldiers to help her to change the world. They underestimated her power but once they saw she was something special... They changed their mind but she didn't. 

- And that's just how it all has started... 

...

Hello guys! 

Happy Wednesday to you! Haha first thing first, one announcement : my publishing schedule changed a little bit and now I'm posting EVERY WEDNESDAY AND SATURDAY! 

I hope that's fine to you.

And now, let's talk about this fanfiction text I just wrote. I wrote it and it's not like the true legend about werewolves! Just to make that clear. I wrote it like Malia was the first werewolf ever because... I don't know, I just had that kind of inspiration, I guess? 

So thanks for reading, please comment down bellow telling me do you like this kind of posts and what should I post next? :) 

I love you all guys, 

Stay alive,xx 

Maybe You'll Love Me Like Before

...

After you suddenly left, there was nothing left in my heart... It became a desert which was once a town. The buildings were smashed down into the dust. All of the buildings in my heart were called by your name. But it's so rare, actually...

How can the person who meant world to you become a stranger? 

A total stranger... 

It, actually, scares me sometimes...

After you I became a cold person... I raised my walls keeping everybody behind them. Just to be sure no one will come into my heart. 'Cause when I let them do it, they leave.

Building all new buildings in my heart just by myself made me realize that I need you but I don't want you to know it...

I need you more than anyone or anything.

I realized that your message, your smile or just one look at me would make me feel alive again.

It's so sad that all of your feelings and emotions are trapped into that one person who keeps leaving you alone.

My eyes get yellow. My teeth gets bigger and my nails turn into claws. 

But I can't fight the werewolves in me who keep leading me to you.

Maybe I just need to let them bring me back to you...

Maybe you'll hug me like before...

Maybe you'll look at me like before...

Maybe your heart will beat like before...

And maybe, just maybe... 

You'll love me like before...

...

Hello guys!!! So before I say anything... Sorry! Sorry for writting sad posts over and over again haha! I don't really know why I do it but anyways...

I promise my next few posts will be the happy ones haha! 

So, as you probably know... New trailer for Teen Wolf season  5b is out and I need you to let me know if you want me to do a post, kinda review or ''Teen Wolf Season 5b Trailer Got Me Like...'' post, please let me know in the comments down bellow!

And oh, I've watched The Hunger Games and I remembered one of my lovely readers once asked me why I always write ''Stay alive,xx'' at the end of my posts, am I fan of The Hunger Games and I told her/him that I didn't even watched The Hunger Games yet so I'm answering you now : YES, I AM! I'M A HUGE FAN OF THE HUNGER GAMES! OmG I don't know which movie do I like better : Divergent, The Hunger Games or The Maze Runner haha. I wish Shelley and Dylan are characters in every movie ohh...

Guys, we are so close to 9000 VIEWS which is AMAZING! I love you so much and I hope you'll always be my dear readers and I want you to know that I'm always there for you no matter what, if you need me, just tell me in the comments and I will contact you and listen you, help you, anything for you! 

Let's do it to 9000 VIEWS!

This was long! If you all way down here, you are my cupcake haha! 

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I love you,

Stay alive,xx