Hiding My Real Self #2

She was sitting alone in the cafe

And I was looking at her

Probably even staring

But I couldn't help myself 

Her eyes were so beautiful,

gorgeous ...

But I felt they were kind of dark, 

Like they are hiding something

...

The energy between two of us

Was odd

She attracted me in weird way

I had to came closer to her and ask her 

'What is bringing you here?'

She didn't answer for a while

She just looked at me

After few minutes

Her eyes started shining

In color I can't describe

So beautiful

But so sad

And she said

'You' .

In that second

I swear

I knew we were somehow connected

...

Hiding My Real Self

There are the days

When I feel like the beast inside me

Will defeat me 

And I'll just become void

It scares me

How there are multiple persons or even creatures

In one person

Maybe I should just stop thinking about it 

But every time I see you

I wonder

If you feel the same

Are there the voices in your head

Making you evil and bad and...

I can't stop thinking

I think too much 

Maybe I should let it all go

Let the werewolf inside me

Speak and do instead of me

Cause

There are the things I wanna do 

But can't

Because people will judge

Always and forever

And I'm learned I should hide my real self 

But I wonder 

Until when ?

AU Explanation : Stiles lives normal life but he's a werewolf. 

He hides his nature because he thinks people will judge and think of him as a beast but then he sees Malia and he asks himself does she feel the same, maybe she could also be werewolf.

Stay alive,xx

Malia Green Eyes

I love to imagine I was Malia but why not to imagine Malia was me? So I TRIED to make her eyes green like mine in this edit and I know I'm not good at it yet but I'm still learning.

Malia would look stunning with green eyes although her brown as a human and blue as a werewolf / werecoyote are wonderful,too!

She's such a queen, isn't she?

Oh I love her!!!

Stay alive,xx

What about us?

 You know what hurts the most? - I asked the total stranger sitting on a bench right next to me.

He looked at me like I'm crazy. Maybe I am but after everything, how could I be normal?

What? - He asked still looking at me.

Seeing somebody you love slowly moving away from you. Like I was nothing to him! That hurts...

Especially knowing it's all my fault. I can't watch fake people around people I love and every time, every single time, I decide that something is wrong with me, not them and I just... I start pushing people away from me. Because I... I know I cannot change them, I cannot change the way they see things or people. I can't choose their friends and that kills me.

Sounds selfish, I know but I... I want somebody to choose me over anyone else. I want to be someones first choice, the person they think about when they read all these cute quotes about love. 

And I know I'll never find that person because the last one I trusted that way... He betrayed me. And... And there's absolutely no one who could fix me, put my broken pieces together. I cannot live without him, although he is not mine now... Ohh, who am I kidding? He'll always be mine. Even when he doesn't want to, when he wants to forget me, delete me completely from his life... I'll always be there. Watching for him and making sure he's okay, you know. It's always dangerous out there and I just wanna make sure he's safe. Oh my God, why didn't he stop me from saying goodbye ?! Why didn't he chose me over her?! Why?! What have I done, I've never hurt anybody and I was always caring about people, about their feelings... But now, when I'm shattered into pieces, nobody is there for me. 

I'm a bad person, ain't I?

Malia, this one is for you. I love you!

Stay alive,xx

Poetry

...

There's  poetry in your eyes ,

And the stars in your head. 

Surely, there's love in your heart, 

Cause your soul is a pure art.

Sometimes, you don't like the fact you show your feelings,

But baby, what you feel gives me wings

To fly like a bird

Oh my God, I'm such a nerd

But I don't even care

 I write poetry and it's 'bout you 

I can't live without you , you're my air

Ohh I hope I won't screw

Up this time 

Just give me a chance to show you

Who truly I'm.

I'd tell you all about me, my dreams, wishes and everything

I'll be your queen, you be my king

...

Wooow LONG 9 days without you, wolfiers but I'm here now! 

What do you think about maybe 2 posts a week now? Yes, you've read it right! I'm going to post more frequently now but, of course, if you want me to. 

So what's up with you guys? Tell me down bellow what's going on with your lives right now, I love reading your comments!

And oh, btw.if you find out something new about the upcoming season, please let me know! 

Thank you for visiting and reading! 

I love you! 

Stay alive,xx

Waiting For You

Hello guys! It's been so long I talked to you! I had so much to do, I'm going crazy in school so I couldn't find any extra time to talk to you. And I'm so sorry about that! Hope I'll finally make my schedule works so I can find some time to enjoy here writting new posts. 

I hope you like my posts, if you don't, please tell me what should I change about them and what kind of posts would you like to see here. 

''Blue jeans, white shirt walk into the room, you know you made my eyes burn...''

I love you, bad boy. 

I love how your eyes are saying things you did. Oh those eyes make me melt every time they look at me but I'm acting so cool hoping you can't see that I want you.

I want you by my side now and forever.

I'm trying to act cool making you try harder to get me. 

It's hard, you know?

Because I only want to hug you and never let you go again.

I know you well. I know you are showing your cold side on the outside making everyone freeze when you walk in but, inside... You are just a boy wanting someone to love him forever. Someone who will give him promises and don't break them. Someone who will give him all her heart 'cause you just wanna feel loved... You just wanna feel like when you die, someone would actually cry because of you. Like someone would care for all your wounds and make them disappear. It's truth, isn't it?

And the only thing I can promise to you is that I will love you forever.

'Cause I'm the person that gives everything or nothing.

I'll love you with all my heart or I'll hate you. It's simple.

When you get to know me better you'll realize I'm not perfect, but I'm not even trying to be. I just want someone who would treat me like I am and I'll give him all my world. I'll never let him go.

Is that enough to you?

If it is, come! I'm waiting for you..
.

Again I'm so sorry about my inactivity but I'll try harder to organize my time because I just love you all and I love writting here, talking to you...
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I love you all,
Stay alive, xx

MALIA'S POWER!

Hello guys,
I was just thinking something and decided to write a post about 4 times Malia was totally ruling the world with her power (werewolf's power) !
Her power is just... #GOALS!

So let's get into this ----->

1. FIGHTING A DREAD DOCTOR!
This scene was amazing! Scott was fighting a Dread Doctor but Dread Doctor punched him hard and then Malia came... 
Let me just show you this...

At the end she, thanks God, escaped. We all know that one werewolf can't beat Dread Doctor but Malia did pretty well and she saved Scott with Melissa's help.

I could say this was one of my favorite #MaliaAsWerewolf scenes.

2.SHE EASILY BEATED THE GUYS IN THE CLUB!

Remember when they were in the club, Malia and Kira were dancing to don't get discovered but they did, so they needed to beat bodyguards to escape. 

Aww cute! #WerewolfGirlsPower !

3.FEEL SOMEONE IS COMING!

Malia was with Stiles in the front of the school. She felt someone is coming, someone who's really fast. And yeah... She did this...

Poor Liam! And Stiles' there like wtf?! Haha. So cute to me. I know, I'm weird...

4.SHE LEARNED HOW TO CONTROL FAST!

Werewolf, acutually, needs a lot of time and patience to learn how to control but Malia did it pretty fast ,which is really amazing and stunning! Yeah, she was couple of times tied with chains like other werewolves trying to learn how to control but she did it very well, and she didn't even killed anyone learning this (this was joke haha). She is literally GOALS! How many times did I said this?!

''If I concentrate I can be pretty strong'' 

''Shoot me down, but I won't fall...'''

That was it for today,

Hope you enjoyed,

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