Friday Feels

'Everybody know how to love,

but only few people know how to stay in love

with one person for a long period of time.'

Afraid Of Losing You

It's like every day is dangerous and I'm scared...

Why ? 

You are the best and love every single thing about you.

I'm afraid baby... 

Afraid of losing you...

You know... I dream about you every single night and I wake up in tears.

It's like you are leaving me and I can't stop you. 

You are leaving me without saying goodbye. 

And it hurts... 

Hurts knowing that I'm losing you with every single mistake I do...

I'm just like that. I'm the worst but I love you the most...

Only you can make me smile while I'm crying. 

Only you can wake up the butterflies in my stomach and it feels exactly like when we first met.

You make me so much better.

Maybe I'm the worst to the world, but for my girl... You know, I'll do anything.

Anything to keep you here with me.

Anything to make you feel loved and to make you want to stay here with me.

You are the one, girl.

I know I'm doing a lot mistakes recently but please, don't give up on me.

I wanna be yours but I, sometimes, turn on the wrong path hoping that you won't let me go.

I love you, baby... Please don't let me go because I'm afraid of losing you...

Better With You

Let me hold you a little bit more before you leave cause babe you make me feel like there's no one else on this world but you and me. You make me feel I need to be better cause you're the best. You make me think about my mistakes and trying to fix them. Just... You make me better person because when I'm with you... Ohh I would never done something stupid because I do care about you and I don't want to lose you...

I just think about how you felt when I did something stupid, how you were mad at me for days and I just want that to never happen again. I want to be with you forever.
It might seem crazy but I feel like you are my motivation to be better, to be better person, boyfriend, son, student... Just everything. 
Because when I think about your eyes, I want them to shine because of me and for me, just for me.
And when I think about your smile... I want to be your reason to smile.
I want our hands to perfectly match into each other like puzzles.
I want you to be mine forever and I'm not going to screw the chance you gave to me because my promises are serious, and I never break them.
Like Aristotle says  : 

''Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies.'' 

That's why you make me better. Because you're the best and we are one.
Because when I touch your hand, the whole world stops for a while, we are trapped in the most beautiful moment we never want to end.

You know... There are night when dark starts to reign my body but then... 

I remember you exist and I chase my demons out of my head because I'm not VOID anymore. And it's because of you. 

It's because all nights seem perfect to be with you just walking on a beach, on a full moon, describing your smile and talking how you shine brighter than stars do. 

'Cuz when you are with me... I can even notice anybody or anything.

Even stars became not that beautiful by your side because you eclipsed them with your shine they could never reach.

Hello there! Did you miss me? Haha so I'm so sorry I didn't post on Wednesday but I really have good excuse and it's, you're guessing... SCHOOL! I just had so much to do and I felt like doing nothing so I just layed on my bed until like 8 pm and then I remembered of all the homework and stuff like that I have to do and I had chemistry test today so please be reasonable to me because I'm doing my best and I hope you appreciate it. I love you all and I'll start writting more  and better in the next week. Thank you for your support! 

Stay alive,xx

I won't judge. I promise.

I mean... If there's something in this life I could keep forever and never leave it, it would be you.

 You know I can't go a day without hearing your voice, seeing your smile...

I ,sometimes, feel like I'm too blessed having you by my side, like I think I dream when I'm with you, I feel I didn't even deserve someone like you. But you know how selfish I am when it's all about you. Now, when I have you, I will never leave you. When I say ''never'' I mean it and it will not change by the ages, your mistakes and bad things you've done. 

I will never leave you. 

If there's a problem, okay, we'll solve it.

But, please, don't try to hide the truth from me, you know I'll feel it, I'll find out and my heart breaks a little when I hear the lie while knowing the truth. 

I know you don't like to lie, you do it because you think I would leave you because of your mistakes.

But baby, no mistake ever done in this world could wipe away the love I feel for you. And you should know that... I'm not perfect and I'm not trying to be perfect, but I love you like no one ever did and will. And I know you aren't perfect, and I'm not looking for perfection, because... All your mistakes, bad things you've done and all your imperfection are actually the reasons why I love you so much.

Yeah, I love all your imperfections. That's what makes us human. Making mistakes, again and again, but it also makes us stronger and wiser.

I love all the things you hate about yourself. 

You think I'll leave you and judge you because you've done something bad. 

But babe, ''I won't judge. I promise.'' , remember?

Hello guys, 

So today I wrote this text like ''Malia writting to Stiles'' type of text (I know you understand me) because all this thing with Donovan and Stiles' feeling guilty made me feel really lost and then Malia came in the last episode saying that she knew everything but it didn't matter to her (SHE WAS REALLY TELLING WHAT I WAS THINKING) and that Stalia moment made me melt (lol!) and I decided to write this text to express my feelings about this. 

Writting is such a beautiful art. I just enjoy writting, sharing my emotions with the paper...

So please tell me did you liked it in the comments down bellow and subscribe to my blog!

Thank you very much! You know I love you haha.

Stay alive, xx

2000 VIEWS?! & 7th Episode Got Me Like...

Hello my amazing people!
I REALLY COULDN'T BELIEVE WHEN I SAW 2000+ VIEWS... LIKE IT'S 20 DAYS FROM MAKING THIS BLOG AND WE ARE HERE WITH 2000+ VIEWS! 
THANK YOU FOR YOUR AMAZING SUPPORT THROUGH ALL THIS TIME! ILYSM! <3

And I also decided to write ''7th Episode Got Me Like...'' because I noticed you love these posts and I'm going to write them in the future for every episode :).

So... This week's episode was literally mind-blowing !
I'm so excited for next episodes, that I can't even put my words together.
Where should I start? From beginning of course... Haha.

Well... I really don't know what to say about Theo... He's been like : cute, good,bad, cute, bad, bad, good... Did I mentioned cute? Hahah! I'm really mad at Jeff doing this to us! You can't make cute guy bad guy! Right guys? You know how I feel!
He's like being good to Stiles and wanting to get in the pack but also, he's meeting Dread Doctors and I'm out of my mind... It's trending #TwoSidedTheo now but if you ask me, he's bad guy, very bad. He'll never be good guy. Have you seen what he told Stiles about his sister's death but acctually he could save her! Like, he was 10-13 years old, i don't know, but there was some evil in his eyes... How could 10-years-old kid hate? I really don't have the answer so... I guess, unfortunately, we'll have to wait till next episode to find this out...

And what about Hayden?
Jeff, I'm repeating, don't make us hate you! Like really, she's so cute and she's the right one for Liam (besides me ofc) but now Dread Doctors will make her under their control and ,maybe, even kill her for not doing her ''job''?!
But... but... Liam fell for her and I'm so sad about him.

And what about MY true Alpha?! :(
He's just... distraught, I guess?! He can't stop people dying and he can't admit it, he doesn't want anyone to die, he's been sick of deaths in Beacon Hill and I'm so with him, #ScottNeedsSupport!

WHAT THE HELL HAS BEEN TO KIRA?!
Foxes... Foxes...
I can't believe they can't controle themselves like werewolfs...
But, there's just one question I can't stop asking myself in my head... How has Kira's mom controlled herself?!
I mean, she's fox too!
But Kira is something special, I believe.
Have you seen how she has broken her mom's sword?! Like Scott was the only one to break the mountain ash's wall , I mean she's the only fox who can beat anyone else and when she get in the fight, she can't stop herself.
I was so,so ,so scared about Scott, Malia, Lydia and Stiles this episode!!!
Scott almost got killed by Kira!
Malia almost got killed by Dread Doctors!
Lydia almost got killed by Dread Doctors too, but Tracy trapped her by asking her for help!
Stiles... O my God! He almost got killed by PARRISH! And yeah, Theo saved him but he's still bad guy for me but yeah, Theo thank you...

And we were talking about Parrish... PARRISH! O my God! What is he doing?! Can somebody please stop him and Kira from being bad when they transform?!
I'm going to Beacon Hills and I'm going to stop them ,are you with me?! Haha.
That gross scene with Lydia kissing, I mean it was cute till she became all bloody and agh... Gross!
But still #MarrishIsCute and I ship them so hard!

What about Mr.Stilinski and Melissa? Am I the only one who ships them so hard haha?!
They are great crime-discovering partners and couple, and also ,so cute.
What do you think about skin transplant on Chimeras' shoulders?
That's creepy, if you ask me,.. I'm wondering what's hiding behind that...

I can't forget this... Did your eyes sweat mine when Stiles told he's going to lose his best friend by telling him the truth? 'Cuz mine did...
Please Stiles tell Scott and Malia you killed Dunovan , they are not going to leave you, they are going to listen you and forgive you. IT WAS SELF-DEFENCE! #fingerscrossed #loveyouStiles #SupportStilesThroughHisWorstAndLoveHimAtHisBest <3!

Jeff you really need to read my blog! I mean, they were no Stalia moments in this episode at all!
I'm so freaking worried :( ! #LoveStaliaForever

AND A MOMENT OF SILENCE FOR A LOVED ONE HAS FALLEN! #R.I.P.STILES'JEEP :( </3 

Please watch my video waiting for new one: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=18QNcXWPusA

That was everything, I guess...
I've gathered my thoughts a little bit now, I think...
See you tomorrow,
Love ya all, xx

BREAK UP?!

Hello guys,
Idk how to write this intro because I'm not really okay. You can see by the title...
So basically, I was looking through Instagram (#instagramobsessed) and I came across this photo :

AND I'M TOTALLY FREAKING OUT GUYS!!

The description of this photo on Instagram was ''So it basically means their break up...'' !
BREAKUP?!

I'm not fine at all... I just wonder something...

WHY THE HELL YOU ARE DOING THIS TO US ,JEFF?! WHY?!
AS MUCH AS I LOVE YOU FOR GIVING US STALIA MOMENTS IN PREVIOUS SEASON, I HATE YOU FOR DOING THIS TO US! 

I really hope this isn't the truth and if they really break up , they'll reconcile really fast because I know they can't stand long without each other. 

What do you think guys?
I'm dying to know if this is the truth so please ,if you know, tell me <3

See you tomorrow,
Love ya all, x

STYDIA VS STALIA?!

Hello guys,
I know I've made similar post to this, I think it was ''Why I don't ship Stydia or Sterek?!'' but I haven't made a post like why I think Stalia has a future and Stydia don't so that's my thema for today, i.e. ''Stydia vs Stalia?!'' .
I'll do 3 thesis to try to bring you closer my opinions. I hope you'll enjoy :).
Let's get into this.

1. LYDIA - Imagine someone had crush on you for like 10 years or more and you didn't give a shit about it (sorry for my  expression) and then you suddenly realize that you love him, imagine when! When he has fallen in love with somebody else. I think the song from One direction- Taken describes this the best : Now that you can't have me
You suddenly want me
Now that I'm with somebody else
You tell me you love me
I slept on your doorstep
Begging for one chance
Now that I finally moved on
You say that you missed me all along.NO LYDIA! GO LOVE PARRISH, YOU CAN HAVE HIM BUT STILES IS TAKEN! haha


And then there's MALIA - From the very beginning of their relationship, Malia had all the power. She first met Stiles after he and Scott saved her from killing her adopted father and turned her back into a human after she had lived as a coyote for the most of her life. At first, Malia hated Scott and Stiles for making her become a human again and for putting her in a mental institution. In fact, she punches him when he shows up in the Eichen House. But as she starts learning more and more about Stiles' problems with Nogitsune, Malia starts to warm up to Stiles quite a bit. She initiated their first kiss. She tells him her feeling first and often. She isn't ashamed of it. Only thing that matters to her is her love to Stiles. Stiles finally found someone who cares about him. #StaliaForever

2. LYDIA -  Lydia treated Stiles very bitchy (if you ask me) until... Say it! You know it! UNTIL MALIA DIDN'T SHOW UP what means she just want someone like Stiles to love her forever while she is with another guys. She only wants to have someone who cares about her like Stiles did. But now... You've seen last episode. Stiles doesn't show her feelings around her and even Scott said that he was different around her before. #MaliaChangedHim :)

MALIA - As I've said ,Malia was the one who kissed him first, told her feeling about him first and she had never show interest for other guys. I repeat, you've seen last episode. Theo tried to flirt with her but she was like ''Wtf are u trying to do , I'm taken?!'' and that's what I like about her. She is loyal to Stiles. :)

3. LYDIA - Stydia shippers be like '' How can you ship 3 scenes when they(Stiles and Lydia) have history?'' and I'm like ... WHAT?! It's waaaaaaay more than 3 scenes and history?! What history?! Are you talking about Stiles ''running after'' Lydia and Lydia constantly refusing him? Like... if that's your history I don't have anything more to say. Just ask yourself.

MALIA - Maybe Malia hasn't history with Stiles yet but can't you see it? Every episode they are writting history and all you can say about Stydia is history. If you know the meaning of that word you'll know that history is passed, gone, no more... If you know what I mean. :)


And that was it. I hope you understand me and I hope I've explained myself and the purpose of this blog IS NOT HATING STYDIA BUT SHIPING STALIA. I DON'T HATE LYDIA AT ALL, I LOVE HER BUT I SHIP STALIA. PLEASE READ THIS BEFORE YOU JUDGE. THANKS.

I hope you enjoyed and see you tomorrow , x

Separation

Stiles...
It's been 3 months and 4 days.. Yeah, I count. This is my 57th letter to you. Idk if you feel the same but I... I feel lost without you. In the daytime it's okay... At least, I pretend it is. But when the night comes I fall asleep in tears and wake up with them. Sometimes I dream you. You are here and I can see you but I can't touch you. It hurts so much. I have friends here, a lot of them but no one can replace you. No one! But baby, it's coming.... Our day after 4 months! I can't wait to see you! To hug and kiss you! You know... I miss your hugs so much... I miss us holding hands, walking and talking about stupid things. I know I'm boring sometimes but I make fool of myself to keep you with me.
I know there are a lot of better girls than me. Prettier, smarter... But... I love you. I love your smile. I love your hair. I love your hands. I love your eyes. I love your sarcasm. I love everything about you. You are perfect to me, my eyes can't see your imperfections. They are blind, they can't see anything but you. You are the center of my world. It's everything about you...
I read your letters again and again and everytime I cry. I know you don't want me to cry but... I can't just stop it. It hurts. 
Time goes so slow... Every 4 months I see you. It's so long time. I want you to be here with me forever. It's rarely how time with you goes fast but without you it seems like forever.
I'm counting down days till graduation. We made promise. We'll be together. Forever and always. 
I'm not wanting much. Just you and me. 
Place? Time? It doesn't matter. 
Only thing that matters is you. To me, you are the best. Don't you ever change. I love your smile, eyes,hands, hair, your amazing sarcasm, your cleverness... Everything. 
I hope you are happy and excited. Just 26 days baby. I'll count. Don't blame it on me if I can't let you go from my hug, if I don't want the end of our time. Don't blame it on me. You know I'm crazy. But I'm crazy about you.
To the moon and back? To the moon and back. 
-V.Š.

*This was my work about Stiles and Malia separated miles away from each other. They are on college and seeing each other every 4 months. I wrote this like Malia.*
thank you for reading.
Hello my dear people haha,
THANK YOU SO, SO MUCH! I COULDN'T BELIVE WHEN I SAW 700+ VIEWS THIS MORNING! 
I can't really believe like 10 people read my blog, but 700+?! 
I love you so much <3

Your support means whole world to me, especially when I read your comments. There are not a lot of comments but every comment makes my day cuz' I want to see your opinions about every post, what you want to see, what you like, what you don't like so I can improve myself. :)
CAN WE DO IT ON 800?! 

Love ya all,
See you tomorrow, x

5 THINGS ABOUT STALIA :)

Hello my dear #StaliaShippers !
First of all, Eid Mubarak to all Muslims around the world, have great days with your family and friends. XOXO

It's been 3 days since I posted my first post on this blog introducing myself and telling you what is this blog about. From today I'm going to post EVERY SINGLE DAY. It won't be hard to me 'cause I love doing this and I hope you love reading it. I WANT YOU TO TELL ME IN THE COMMENTS WHAT POST YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE! Thanks!

In this post I'm going to talk about 5 THINGS ABOUT STALIA. I hope you like it ! x

So let's start...

1.How did they met each other? 
It was in season 3.  Stiles and Scott wanted to recover Malia to be human again. After Stiles steals her sister's doll, Malia tricks him to the school where she attacks Kira. Scott uses his Alpha power and roar to force Malia to become human again. After that, Malia and Stiles were in Eichen House. She helped him to get into the basement. They started kissing on an old sofa and Stiles gives up his fight with the Nogitsune to save her. 

2.Malia's first love, Stiles' second.
Malia was werecoyote all her life before Scott and Stiles recovered her into human again so... Stiles is her first love, first boyfriend and first kiss. On the other side, Malia is Stiles' second love.
His first love WAS Lydia. He loved her a long time and she ignored him. She ignored him the whole time and when he fell in love with Malia she started to have feelings for him. Like wtf?! You can't just ignore him whole time and be with other guys then, when he move on, start to have feelings for him!
YES, HE LOVED HER! I'm not denying it! But he's find someone who cares about him and who helped him to ''fall out of love'' for Lydia. And simply, he has fallen in love with Malia. Stydia shippers sorry but you don't exist anymore. #MarrishAndStaliaForever

3.He helped her to start thinking like human, not werecoyote. 
This was so cute to me, oh my Gosh!
Malia used to think humans need to be eaten ,killed etc.,but he learned her to think like human.
And that's what love is for. #NeedBoyfriendLikeStiles !

4.They want to protect each other.
Once Malia didn't feel good sleeping in her own bed so she sneaked in to Stiles' and cuddles because she felt she need to protect him because he is a ''little spoon''. A LITTLE SPOON! CAN YOU SEE THE HEARTS GOING OUT FROM MY EYES?! LOVE THEM SO MUCH!



5.They would never leave behind each other. There were so many times they told each other they wouldn't leave without each other. They were hurt, they were sad and happy but they never did leave each other. Once Stiles was scared because he thought Malia was running to leave, but she denied it and said she would never leave him because she loves him. That was so cute. And also...

That was it! I hope you enjoyed it as I did. :)
Lots of love xoxo.
See ya tomorrow!
Bye :) !