Demons

''When you feel my heat

 Look into my eyes 

It's where my demons  hide...
Don't get too close, it's dark inside...''

You know... One thing that happend to you and didn't actually killed you but it left you with huge pain that kills you every day again, again and again, with the sore in your heart like it's breaking over and over again. Something you even feel like you are lost in this world full of people who don't understand you, so you don't trust them, you can't say them what's bothering you and even when the room is full of people you feel lonly but you still smile. And that's the worst you have to do. 
Smile even when you are crying from inside. 
You just want to cry and scream loud and break everything but you can't...
Because they would act like they care but they are just curious, they don't actually care about you, your feelings and your pain.
So you just smile and act like you are happy. 
But your eyes can't hide the pain.
You smile, you hide, you smile, you hide but then...
You burst like an explosion and your eyes start getting darker and darker and you become a monster that people made of you making your feelings collect and collect inside you and they become a big grenade who can't wait no more so you just burst.
And then... They ask what's wrong with you, why are you becoming a monster but they don't realize it's all their fault so you start planning your revenge. Like, not actually revenge but giving them what they deserve. 
God gave you the power you need to punish them and that's your mission, your only goal left in this life... 
You can't go back, you can't kill them inside you, they controll you...
''Don't grow up, it's a TRAP!'' is truth. 
The biggest problem with growing up is realizing that monsters ,we fell they are here , are not under your bed but in your head. 
And...
They are your only friends so you start loving your voidness and that's why people, that's why I became a monster... A monster you'll never understand...
That's why I became void...
Void Stiles...

So hello out there! 

Did you miss me? I didn't post for 2 days... I think. 

And here's the reason...

My school starts on this Monday (O-M-G!) and I realized it's better to post on Monday, Wednesday and Saturday because it's all about QUALITY not QUANTITY because I think I should work harder on these three days than post suck posts every day. I'm going into 9th Grade and this year is our last Middle school year and I really need to work hard. Hope you understand and agree with me. 

And also... I'm preparing you a great COLLAB POST with one of my best girls here on Blogger and I'm so,so,so excided because of that! So get ready guys!

See you on Monday, love ya all! 

Stay alive,xx